3 Boys and a Mom - Diary of a Tagteam

Soooo how many of you have a difficult child??? Go ahead raise your hands... Go on, we aren't gonna tell!! Cause you know I KNOW you all have a child that works your last nerve - it's just how things are.... BUT there are some of us that have children that while we love them dearly they leave us in a heap of tears regularly.... and I don't mean a joyous heap of tears... Today was one of those days... Deven is/can be the apple of my eye... He's a smart, witty, energetic child... He can also be sullen, dark, moody and loud.... Today was DEFINATELY one of those days.... But WHY??? Why suddenly is my dear little man telling me he HATES school and doesn't want to go??? I KNOW the notes from the teacher are getting progressively negative but he hasn't really resisted going to school... Today I actually had to drag him out of the van, then chase him around the grass a bit... Got him in the office, signed him in and he hides under a table crying.... The principal finally gets him to go to his room w/the aid and I talked to the principal.... Is the teacher (special ed) trained for emotional/behavulor issues??? There is something wrong that he doesn't want to go to school and tells me he HATES it... The principal said he would talk to her and see if they couldn't find a different way to handle things... I got in my van and sobbed... Why is life so hard for Deven?? I called his case worker and repeated all the same I had discussed w/principal and we are going to meet w/the teacher on Tuesday afternoon...

There is so much more in my head on this subject but I am just totally spent by it all... If anyone has any suggestions to give the teacher to help her deal w/my baby please let me know.... If I could afford it I would buy her "The Bipolar Child" as it is a great book to help deal w/children like Deven even if only to understand them... But I don't even own a copy yet... *sigh* That's about it... I do have lots of other stuff to post about but I just don't have the energy right now... Perhaps later... Til next time....

It must be a blue moon or something... I have been feeling a bit in a funk the past few days... Besides E being a major asshat I have been just blah feeling... I started back on my meds after being off them for too long... I started at the beginner level again and I think it's time to start moving back up to the full dose - I was stretching it out but I still really need the more then I realized/wanted to admit... I have been trying to keep up w/reading the blogs, I have some posts started/outlined but right now I am just too tired to do them.... I am off to bed early tonight and hoping for a better day tomorrow... Til next time...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!!

I hope you had a wonderday since it's already 7:30 pm there in Korea... The boys and I love you and send lots of hugs and kisses....

Hey all my dear friends/readers... If you get a chance send my dad an e-card - let him know his daughter thinks he's the greatest and wishes him a great birthday... His email is bigump10@yahoo.com

Thanks!! Til next time...

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1st I had some really interesting links to blogs I have been visiting and news reports I have been reading but also I just don't have to post them - not that I can remember anyway.... The day shift has proven to be a wonderful choice - however they are definately keeping me busy busy busy this week.... I shudder when I think of all of this happening w/a disgruntled, unexperienced/educated fill-in such has we have had sitting at this desk for the last 1.5 yrs.... *sigh* No wonder there is so much to do - I am busy doing the day to day things as well as clean up.... Of course clean up is going to take a while...

2nd - WHY are men such asshats??? E called me today at work no less then 5 times - he's giving me a hard time about things he wants from the house that he feels he is "entitled to based on the divorce papers"!! Ummmm pardon me BUT I DO believe that YOU stated in front of a judge under sworn testimony TWICE that you had all you wanted/needed from the house w/the exception of your mountain bike which has since been returned to you.... SOOOO don't go threatening me w/an order to execute or that you will take me back to court because *I* WILL file papers faster then you can zip up your pants... AND while you are at it... Did you complete the court ordered program?? NOOO You didn't - you have twisted to what you feel it was all about to make yourself feel better... Of course we shall see how things go if you end up back in court because of it... Oh and call me again at work and yell or demand things from me that are in NO WAY related to the children or a true emergency and I will be calling the cops and informing them you are violating the restraining order faster then you could take a breath.... Child support be damned - I have lived w/o it for this long, I can live w/o it for a little longer..... *SIGH*

Ok I feel MUCH better now.... Now it's on to Happy Hour w/my friends.... Til next time...

You know I don't think I have ever really stated whether or not I am a Bush support or not (although TECHNICALLY the man DOES sign my paychecks!) Heck I can't even remember if I voted for him last election but I think I did... But as I roam around the blogspere these days and try to enlighten myself on the status of current politics I have decided that I am officially throwing my hat in the ring as a BLOG FOR BUSH.... Ok so the man seems to thing the men and women in uniform deserve a much higher raise then those of us in civie clothes supporting the cause but over all I don't think Bush is such a bad guy and the more I read about Kerry the more I am NOT voting for that guy....

Interesting Kerry Information

Kerry Lies

Both are very interesting articles to say the least.... One addition link of interest was Vodkapundit Even if only for the name!!

In other news...

In loving memory - I can't believe it's been 5 yrs for Columbine My prayers go out to them all...

Til next time...

Here's a worthy cause... Please check it out... Victory Coalition Til next time...

An interesting commentary over at BKO Til next time...

Oklahoma City You are all in my thoughts and prayers today.... I still can't believe it's been 9 years already... Sometimes is seems like it was just last month or last yr but most definately not 9 yrs - then again other tragedies in recent years seem like they are much closer to have happened then is reality...

Michelle over at A Small Victory has a wonderful entry today in honor of the Oklahoma City Bombing... Til next time...

Well I managed to fill the dumpster - yes FILL it.... Man I can't believe the crap that was in there..... *shudder* Reminded me how happy I am to have the main contributor of that crap gone.... And I even found 2 tubs of clothes that I had stashed away last yr... In them I discovered a couple more skirts I can wear for work so that will save me from having to buy any.... I do still need a few tops though - maybe next payday I will check out Walmart for a few tops... My neighbor will dispose of a car battery I found in there and an old way oversized AC unit that E brought from his mom's old place... It feels good to have accomplished so much today... I even went grocery shopping!!! We still have one more errand to run but I can wait another 1/2 hr... Well I need to clean up a bit and get the kids ready to go.... Til next time...

Saturday

Boys I suddenly felt like a clip from a movie or reality show where they put the day on the screen as the sequence starts.... Monster House actually as I think about it! *L*

Today I am going to attempt to clean out the shed a bit - time to continue the purge of X from our lives... ESP after this past week... I also have to find care for the boys on Sunday while I work and do some grocery shopping... But the weather is wonderful and I am looking forward to getting outside... The Tagteam will ride bikes and rollerblade (that Dilen's new favorite sport - or so he tells me!)

For those that have filed their taxes and are lucky enough to actually be getting a little back - perhaps you would consider helping out the Marines just a tiny bit - every little bit helps.... And there is also Chief Wiggles - both worthy causes... I myself will eventually be sending something to Chief Wiggles as they take not only toys but clothing as well - just need to get the shed mucked out so I can go thru the various containers of old clothing from the boys...

Well it's time to dress the boys, and myself and start mucking... Til next time...

You're HIRED!

Well I have to say that I thought The Apprentice was great last night.... DT definately got the right man for the job! Of course while Kwame had his own issues w/being a good leader I do think that Omarosa really did him in.... I can't believe how she lied and so boldfaced too!!!! Ummmm had she NO CLUE that EVERYTHING was on tape??? Did she think that no-one would find out??? And she's so delusional she wouldn't even admit to it when she was confronted by DT.... ANYWAY!! Bill will be a wonderful addition to the Trump family I think... CONGRATS to you BILL!!!!! Til next time...

MEN!!!!

You know yesterday discovered EXACTLY what the saying "You can screw up a wet dream!" means.... E was a MAJOR asshat yesterday.... Needless to say he's really put his foot in his mouth and it's gonna take the jaws of life to get it out!!!! More later... Til next time...

And people are voting for this guy??

Kerry - I can't believe that people are voting for this guy over Bush.... Bush came off as genuine and sincere the other night w/his speach... It was VERY obvious that many of his answers were NOT pre-fab, polished, rehearsed answers at all... But that's another topic... My problem w/Kerry is from reading this article he seems a bit two faced to me.... And this is what we want in the White House??? Ok so maybe most politicians are a bit two faced and dishonest - seriously is ANYONE 100% pure?? But this man, IMO seems to have a history of backing what Bush is doing and yet when he talks to his followers SAYS he is against the way Bush is running things.... Ummmmmm seems a little too confusing for me to follow, don't know how he manages to keep his stories straight....

Well my brain is a bit frazzled today so I'll just stop now while I still sorta make sense... Til next time...

My sentiments EXACTLY!!!!!!

Michelle has posted my feelings quite well, much better then I could ever express them.....

Now I am off to nap for a bit.... Only 2 more nights to go!!! WOOO HOOOOO I can't believe my time in purgatory is almost over.... I moved 2 of the 3 boxes of desk stuff down today.... Til next time...

Real News

Well it seems that Andy Rooney has really put his foot in his mouth.... I don't agree with ALOT of what he says and I certainly don't feel like he does....

Andy says... "Our soldiers in Iraq are people, young men and women, and they behave like people - sometimes good and sometimes bad, sometimes brave, sometimes fearful. It's disingenuous of the rest of us to encourage them to fight this war by idolizing them."

Ummm IDOLIZING them??? No dear Andy we aren't idolizing them - but we ARE encouraging them... Giving them hope, giving them the ability to carry on so far from home and loved ones which they defend the beliefs our country was founded on and attempt to right the wrongs of 9/11/01 and help to allow others to experience the same rights and freedoms we enjoy rather then live under a cruel dicator....

Andy says... " We must support our soldiers in Iraq because it's our fault they're risking their lives there. However, we should not bestow the mantle of heroism on all of them for simply being where we sent them. Most are victims, not heroes. "

YES we MUST support them.... but not because it's our fault OR their fault.... The real fault, when you get down to the bottom line and really look at it - lies with Bin Laden and Saddam to start.... Let us not forget what brought us to the point of war.... Just like WW2 had Pearl Harbor, the Global War On Terrorism (GWOT) has 9/11/01....

And you know while I am on the subject.... I watched the movie "Homeland Security" and I watched the Rice interview and I am reading when I can.... And you know what?? I really don't think we COULD have done anything to prevent the events of that horrible day.... Yes maybe one agency could have interacted a little more with the other.... and yes maybe the Aug 6th PDB could have been read into a little more closely but honestly - have you read it??? It really DIDN"T tell anyone to expect what happened.... And there was alot of anti-terrorism things being done at the time... I mean do you all really think that Federal Employees were just sitting around eating donuts, feet up on desks, laughing and joking and trying to figure out how to spend lunch??? That seems to me that that is how people are perceiving things.... Much like those that hear someone is a Fed Employee and automatically assumes that the person has all these great benefits and great pay.... Ummmm that is soo not true... Study after study done in the past 10-15 yrs has shown the Federal Sector for the most part to be up to 25% or more behind the private sector when it comes to pay... A secretary/admin assistant for Uncle Sam might make $38K but did you know for a good company on the outside she could probably make atleast $45?? And those benefits??? Hell State Employees often get better deals.... YES there are a variety of different health plans but there are nice size premiums that come out of paychecks every pay as well... Same w/retirement, life ins, etc... But I am off topic.... Back 9/11/01 I really think that at that exact time in history prior to the events of that morning that we, the US, was doing as well as we could to attempt to prevent any terrorist acts... It just wasn't good enough... Alot of time and preparation and thought went into that day and the majority of it was kept well under wraps from us....

And Andy - your comment "Most of the reporting from Iraq is about death and destruction. We don't learn much about what our soldiers in Iraq are thinking or doing. There's no Ernie Pyle to tell us"

Well it's just not so.... There ARE alot of "Ernie Pyles" out there letting us know how it really is... MilBlogs Check some of them out, read their stories and then let them know how much you appreciate all they are doing for us... Yes US - regardless of where they are located, our American Soldiers are doing what they do for us - AMERICA and they do so proudly so let's be proud of them!!! And thank you to Michelle for helping me to be more aware of my world and the news.... Til next time...

UGH!!! Did something to the puter at home and now it's not working.... ARRGGGGGGGGG

I'll see if I can repair the damage later today when my shift is over... If not I will be limited to what I can do from work which SUX big time.... Oh well...

3 more nights.... I am finding as the second of my last 5 nights winds down that these days/shifts are determined to be the longest ever....

It's raining here - I don't like rain - man I have a sinus headache.... Trying to make arrangements for a lunch date... That always makes my head feel better..... Well it's time to pack up - til next time...

Well E is being an asshat this week.... He is giving me a hard time about taking the kids over night next week while I work my LAST WEEK of nights!! It's 5 frickin nights for gosh sake!!! Now *I* have to pay the gal that is watching the boys while HE works - his comment "I am gonna have to pay someone to watch my kids while I work?" Ummm HELLO!! What do you think that *I* do??? Welcome to the life of parenthood!! ARRGGGGG it never ends!! NEVER NEVER NEVER THEN I find out he got a parking ticket he didn't pay - so what happens??? *I* get a summons cause the car is in MY name!!! WTF is this??? Oh yeah - I didn't pay it cause they broke my windshield when they put the ticket on it.... WHAT??? I just had that windshield replaced not that long ago to the tune of $200!!!!! AND find out he was in court the other day for something - he didn't say what - just said don't worry I am not in trouble but it cost me alot of $$$ - OH GREAT!! Now what was that about??? Wonder how I can find out - curiousity is killing me... OHHH and he questions where I am going?? What I am doing?? Excuse me but that is NONE of YOUR business!!!!! The man is infuriating!!! I swear! BUT we have things worked out for now.... I am just not talking to him if I can avoid it!! BUT I have today/tonight free so I am gonna go see a "friend" at lunch and perhaps go out tonight for a few drinks!! I am excited!!! First to tackle the dishes.....

OH and one more thing... Got a note from the teacher that said "Deven has been spoken to several times concerning inappropriate talk such as girlfriends, hugging, etc" Ok WHAT does this mean??? So I ask and the reply I get is "Deven has been talking about relationships btwn boys & girls, who likes who & who doesn't like who, who will marry. This subject matter is to mature for the other children & they are uncomfortable. We have asked him several times to stop speaking of this." Ummmm OK is it just me or going by what exactly she says he is talking about it sounds like NORMAL 1st grade talk to me or am I nuts and my child is a bit too mature??? WTF??? The other kids in his is class are 1st graders too, well there are 3 Kindi students too... But come on people!!! If the other kids are uncomfortable maybe YOUR making a big deal about it what is causing that??? Or it's the normal shyness that kids get when you tease them about such things?? I am talking to Dev in small spurts about not saying such things in school - not that there is anything wrong w/it but it's just not stuff you talk about at school.... I have to tread carefully cause he will shut down on me but man it sounds like CRAP to me!!! I am starting to think the teacher is really reaching now... *sigh* Here's hoping things are better after Spring Break...

Well it's off to do the dishes and get ready to go on a lunch date.... Til next time....

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Oh forgot to update - Deven is on day 7 of his Strattera at the proper level... Yesterday was a good day - today was not... Teacher said she had to talk to him about inappropriate language about girlfriends, hugging, etc - WTF does that mean?? And she asked if I am seeing similar behaviors at home as she is at school.... *sigh* One more day... let's hope that a 6 school day break for Easter will give the meds a chance to work up again and for Deven to get out the jitterbugs that are popping out in the classroom... *sigh*

Saturday we went to the egg hunt on base... Poor Dilen was all ready to go and excited and when it came time to gather the eggs he got overwhelmed by all the kids and ran back to me... I walked w/him and held his hand - he got 3 eggs... Poor kid... Deven did very well w/his age group and he even shared his eggs w/Dilen including a ticket for a prize so Dilen got a little stuffed bunny... I'll do an egg hunt in the same throw down the eggs over a big area and the kids gather up for the boys on Sunday morning - Mr. EB is gonna "drop" his eggs on his way to our house.... Well the boys are back from playing outside - gotta love this warmer weather and longer daylight... Now it's time for bed... Til next time....

Ok I really need to whine.... I am feeling more then a little hurt and franky quite confused... Someone I thought of as a dear friend is pg... I am not hurt by that, I am happy she's expecting - shocked and envious yes but still happy... What hurts the most is that she didn't even try to tell me or forewarn me about her pg before she announced it to everyone... Now had it been a case of her not telling ANYONE until she reached a comfortable stage of 12 wks I would have understood but she HAD told a few people and never ONCE mentioned it to me - nor has she really talked to me since she announced it... Putting aside my feelings about pregnancies, the sadness I still struggle with and the fact that EVERYONE I know is pg and I am not nor is there any hope in the near future for it - I thought this person was a friend - I thought she was a dear friend but I guess I was wrong... Seems I just don't read people very well at all any more, is it any wonder I don't feel like I really do have any friends???

Yes folks this is a pity party... It's my life and it sucks and it's my perogative to whine!! Don't like - don't read... I am sooo tired, suffering from an almost constant sinus headache, feeling very draggy and I gained back almost 3 pounds... Add to that AF and the stress of life and I am ready for a major sob party.... I have a ton of stuff to do, children that don't listen and no life other then work and coming home... and this week I don't even want to be at home... The dishes are starting to pile up, I have atleast one load of laundry to wash and a couple more to fold and put away... My yard needs serious TLC but the weather is not cooperating.... Well I guess I have whined enough for now... Let me go find some cheese to go w/it... Til next time...

Well it's been a LONG LONG week! My mom is totally driving me batty!!!! She is just NOT parent material anymore... 1st she parents right over me even after I have asked, told, yelled at her NOT to do that when I am there and I am correcting/talking to the boys... Second she has said things to Deven or in front of Deven and Dilen that I DO NOT want them to hear!!! Needless to say her and I ended up yelling at each other and she is refusing to come back next shift.... That is JUST FINE w/me!! My children do not need to be subjected to the crap she's dishing out.... SOOO just one more night w/Mom here and then tomorrow I will run her home for the last time... WOOOOOO HOOOOOOO

NOW about that night shift.... one more night THIS shift and then only 5 nights the week after Easter Sunday... E will be keeping the boys at night that week... Come 8-8:30 Friday, April 16th I am completely done with midnights!! Sunday, April 18th at 8:30am I will start my life on a regular, normal schedule - well it's days atleast... I will be working Thur-Mon so my weekends will be Tues/Weds... That's ok with me....

Dilen will be tested for Kindi admission on June 24th - we are working on letter identification since that's his weak point.... I am sure he will do fine... I had an initial meeting regarding testing/evaluating him for an IEP but we decided since he poses an unusual situation w/the early Kindi admission that we will hold off on the IEP process until we know if he passed the kindi testing.... Deven started back on his normal 40mg of Strattera today... Hopefully with mom not being here anymore - Me almost done w/nights and him being back on his regular meds he will fall back into a better place at school - if not I guess we will be considering adding Risperdal to his meds... I also added a vitamin and some raisins for snack to his day - I am thinking maybe he's been a little low on iron that he's been dosing off at school during the day - seems to be working so far - 1st day he only dosed a little and yesterday he didn't fall asleep at all....

OH!! Almost forgot - the school took Dilen to see the Easter Bunny the other day and I was sooo proud of my little pumpkin - he jumped right up on Mr EB's lap and smiled sooo nicely so I could get a pic... The first time since he was an itty bitty!!! WOOO HOOOO We weren't afraid this year!!!! I'll get the pic up somewhere sometime this week!!!

Not too much else going on - Just been keeping busy with work and have a little list of chores here I need to dive into.... Well we are off to an egg hunt... Til next time....